For the past couple of months I wanted to quit.
I know this may be something that cannot and should not be said by a working photographer. Lately I’ve been in a world of funk about who I am, what I should be doing and what is my purpose in life. I know that this is the so-called path of the artist and that these are the tides that we all need to face on a daily basis – but it still hurts to go through them.
I didn’t think I would live up to the hype of being a great artist.
I know that this life can be very difficult and the work that I do can be “shit” compared to most people. At the end of the day no matter how many images I’ve taken the struggle is still there. I’m constantly criticizing myself to do better. But during this era of trying to get out of this funk I realized something.
I realized I’m not the only one who feels this way.
Even the most successful artists struggle with this! I’ve had my fair share of ups and downs, praise and criticisms, some from complete strangers and others were from my own family. And there were times where I just thought to myself “Are they right? Should I quit? Should I choose a different profession?” But no matter how many times I step away from my camera, I always feel pulled to come back and pick it up.
Being a photographer is part of my being. It’s who I am.
Every photograph I take is my inner world externalized. I know that there are bad days but that there are also good days. And I have come to the conclusion that maybe no one will EVER see my work. Maybe I will be one of those artists that gets discovered after I’m gone but I won’t let that stop me from taking photos. So my beautiful dreamer, this me my lesson of the day to you.
Never forget why you started.
This life is hard. It’s very difficult and you are going to have horrible days where you might want to quit. But if you are being pulled back and you keep coming back to your passion, then don’t stop. No matter if people around you think that you suck and that you have no talent at all…keep going. Do it for your sanity. Do it for yourself. Because at the end of the day you are living your truth.
Now it’s your turn!
Did you ever feel like giving up on your passion or project? If so, leave a comment below and let me know.
Til next time,